Where is the Emphasis?

Today I found myself flipping through the pages of the calender. I am not looking for a scheduled event, but rather an UNscheduled event. I find some modicum of comfort in looking ahead to the imaginary date on which we will get to pick up our baby girl. Pitiful, I know.

The days lately seem endless, but the inquiring looks from others, sometimes keeps me indoors to avoid the barrage of disappointed stares. I actually had a mom I know apologize to me before asking about when our baby would get here. She did not want to cause me any more pain than I was already experiencing. I find it humbling to know that others suffer along with me during this wait.

Some common questions I have been thinking about.

"When will she come home?"

"I don't know."

"Why does it take so long?"

"I don't know."

"Don't they know this is a child?"

"I don't know."

As I look at these three questions, I reflect on the word on which the emphasis is placed. Hmmmm. When will she come home? "I" don't know, but my Lord does.

Why does it take so long? I "don't" know. If I did, I could explain it or maybe fix it.

Don't they know this is a child? I don't "know" anything about the people who God has placed in charge of my daughter's future. All I do know is that He has chosen very carefully all who will be involved in her paperwork, just as He has carefully chosen the family that will welcome her home when the time arrives.

I guess the lesson to learn is that the emphasis must be on GOD. He has all of the answers, even to the toughest questions. I can hear Him speaking to me , His child, as I ask these questions of Him. He is saying,"Because I said so!" I smile knowingly, because there are times when I have uttered these very words when speaking to my own children. Not because I don't want to answer them, but because the answer to their questions would be too far above their comprehension. Trust! It boils down to trust. We ask our children to trust us every day. God is asking me to trust Him in all things. Sometimes His will is too far above my comprehension.

Prom

Our son just attended his first prom! We were so excited about all of the hoopla. He looked marvelous in his tux and his date was a beauty. She is JUST a friend, and she asked him to go. The theme of the prom was The Orient, and the group went to dine at Tokyo, a very nice Japanese restaurant, before going to the prom. After prom, they went cruising in the limo they had rented for the evening, and ended up at a friends house. Our son then parted from his date to meet up with some buddies for an all-nighter of hanging out and having fun. Fortunately for me, that friend lives in the same neighborhood as us, and I know the mom:) Ah, the safety net !! After all, all children need a balance of freedom AND limits!
After three boys, I am SO ready for a chance to buy a prom DRESS for my girls! Fortunately, they are eight years apart, so I can recover financially from one before paying for another!LOL! I know me, and I will DEFINITELY go overboard:)
I had to smile at the picture on the wall to the right of his head. It is him when he was about 1.5! They truly do grow up too fast!!

Hugs!

Gee, are ya tired of all my posts? I know, I should save a few for another day, but while I am here....
OK! I lived for MANY years surrounded by boys. First my husband, then three little ones..all boys. I was seriously outnumbered! When Summer Rain was born, it helped even out the odds:) She makes up for all of those years of no pink and nothing girly around. She gives her brothers a run for their money in the huggy-kissy department. For the most part she is well received, but then again, it is a safe bet to hug in public where everyone is looking, and no one will stop her!!!LOL! Did I mention that she is smart as well as a cutie??!! She is hugging her oldest brother in blue, Spotted Deer. Her middle brother in red, Brave Wolf, and her youngest brother in pink, Running Squirrel. Yes, they too, have Indian names. They were a part of the YMCA program Indian Guides. Now the program is called Native Sons and Daughters. I highly reccommend it if they have this program in your area.
I cannot wait until next Easter when our darling new daughter will share in the hugs !

Christmas Tree Car

Well, imagination is really key in making pinewood derby cars...at least if you are Summer Rain. She wantes her cars to go fast, but that is the job of her Dadda..Running Deer. Her job is to be creative and come up with the years newest design. She has created a watermelon car, a slice of wedding cake car...complete with filling betweeen the layers and a wedding cake topper with a bride and groom, and a party hat car with a poof ball on top! This year her car was a christmas tree (the one in the middle). She is already making plans for next year! I can't tell ya what it is....it's top secret:)

Summer Rain

Well, there is no story behind this picture. I just found it on my camera, and decided to post it because I like it! Summer Rain is very cooperative with me whenever I say,"Stay right like that! This will make a great picture!!"

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday Dear ------,
Happy Birthday to you!
Our little Guatemalan Princess had a birthday in January. I was so sad that she was not here to celebrate, but we remembered her by having a small cake with one shining candle on it. We all gathered around the table and sang Happy Birthday to her, and prayed that somehow God would make sure she felt extra special that day. We bought a few presents for her, and we hope she likes them:) It is a tradition in our family, that on your special day, we do this 'round the table thing. We turn out all of the lights for effect, and it is fun to sing in the dark, with only the candles lit. This day was extra special, because as we gathered around the table, we were made very aware of the person we were singing to, and her absence. That one, lone candle shining in the dark of our kitchen was truly illuminating the love in our hearts for this precious child who is still so far far away in miles, yet so very close to our hearts. Thank you Jesus for this reminder that love is not dependant on proximity.
I didn't have a blog back then, so I am just now getting to post about this stuff! BTW, the cake was delicious!

Easter Egg Hunt

Hi there! I guess you all must have given up on me ever posting again:) Well, I am baaaaack! I hope to catch you all up on the happenin's around here. Be patient, this may take awhile!LOL!

This is a pic of my sweet girl and me in the park after the annual Easter egg hunt with her Indian Princess Tribe. Her Indian name is Summer Rain. We thought this was so appropriate for her! She came up with it all on her own, and it really describes her personality. She is usually a beautiful summer day, with the possibility of a storm!LOL! Anyway, she found the most eggs that day, 94, and won a BIG basket of goodies!!
Way to go Summer Rain:)