"For the vision still has it's time, presses on to fulfillment, and will not disappoint; If it delays, wait for it, it will surely come, it will not be late."
This verse has brought me great comfort in the long wait to bring our daughter home. I remember the day I first was made aware of this verse. It meant so much to me, and has since been an icon of sorts for me. The words have been encouragement at times, and at other times they have been balm. Sometimes they were miraculous, and other times they seemed impossible to believe. Today they were given a different meaning. Isn't that just like the Bible? It is living and ever able to minister and teach us at every point in our lives.
A few days ago I read a a potent page in my daily devotional. It was asking the question, "What indeed, prevents me from really opening myself to the grace of my baptism and growing in my faith?" Then it went on to answer for me...very accurately I might add.
"FEAR OF LOSING SOME PART OF MY LIFE I BELIEVE IS ESSENTIAL."
Yep. That nailed it!! UGH!! I know I have been holding back from God, by holding on to my daughter who is not yet home. As much as I like to think she is essential to my life and my future happiness, she is not. This is a hard pill for me to swallow. I love her with all of my heart. I have allowed my love for her, my desire for her to be home, to crowd out what is truly essential in my life. Essential for my eternal life, and my life here and now. My true happiness, which is in Jesus Christ alone.
So what does this have to do with the verse above? Well, today I was awakened to a new perspective on the "vision" the verse mentions. No longer a vision of the completion of our adoption, but a much larger vision. A vision where my priorities are God first, God second, and God third, and so on until there is no one but God. He alone is essential. Over and over God must remove the obstacles in our lives that get in the way, and take His place. In the case of our adoption, I think that maybe God sees the withholding of our daughter's homecoming as necessary to bring me fully into the vision He has for me. I can now hear Him say,"For the vision still has it's time, presses on to fulfillment, and will not disappoint; if it delays, wait for it, it will surely come, it will not be late."
